Monday, June 29, 2020

Gaining Humility in the Confidence that is Christ


In the course of Christian maturity, I have come to understand that those who transform into sincere, accepting, joy-nuanced and calm humility—

humility not threatened by or jealous of how others live; 

that doesn’t attempt to cover up feelings of weakness with bravado or intelligence; 

humility that actually prefers to mind its own business and not meddle (whether that meddling be through overt unsolicited advice, internal irritation or passive, critical gossip)

that those who become this are true, gentle and beautiful.

These then spread truth, gentleness and beauty wherever they happen to be at any given moment. 

Oodles of books have been written about how to live the Christian life, along with the steps to becoming humble. 

In reality, the answer is in the live-streaming, if you will, of Christ the Person: embarking upon the journey of Him, relaxing into His Spirit, taking in His nourishment to wholeness in His Person. 

Thinking upon Him always, contemplating His Words, our heart-mind strengthens as His confidence proceeds while our own recedes and eventually peters out. 

Then it is that the humble surety of Christ reveals: His constant presence, His love not just for us but for all—nothing marred by the grandstanding, interfering self. 


Copyright Barb Harwood




Monday, June 22, 2020

The Approach


A poem, by Carl Sandburg:



                                CHOOSE

     The single clenched fist lifted and ready,
Or the open asking hand held out and waiting.
                                Choose:
For we meet by one or the other.


Carl Sandburg



Thursday, June 18, 2020

To the Morning


There’s a song, called To the Morning by Dan Fogelberg, which I became acquainted with during my 16th summer while working and living at a Wisconsin Youth Conservation Camp. 

Each morning, as we campers snoozed in cozy bunks in rustic lumberjack-era cabins shrouded in pre-dawn mist, we would perceive, from the corners of dreams or out-cold REM, the ever so slight inklings of piano music emanating from the camp loudspeaker. 

The song, played on vinyl in the camp office, tiptoed at first into our heavy-lidded slow-to-come-to-life consciousness, and the singer, Dan Fogelberg, began:

“Watching the sun
 Watching it come
Watching it come up over the rooftops”

Then, in slow but sure crescendo, it spread out across the camp, eliciting the first no-going-back-to-sleep-now stirrings among the slumbering workers.

“And maybe there are seasons
And maybe they change
And maybe to love is not so strange”

Every morning, in rumbling thunder or windy restlessness, that song woke us to the day that lay before us.

Not a morning person at that time in my life (show me a teenager who is), I loved waking to that song. It modeled for me how to rise and meet the day in the possibility of romance with life itself.

I used to occasionally play this song to rouse my boys before school, and have returned to listening to it in the last year.

It reminds me of that summer—of that soft dawn light carried on a breeze of fresh pine through screened cabin windows—of when the song did justice to a time of day I had previously loathed. That summer, I learned what morning is—the very best time of day.

Back then, it was physical hard work that would dim this fleeting moment of ante meridiem joy: 

The bright harsh afternoon sun which reduced the landscape to a flat, one-dimensional plane;

The sore neck from looking up to trim branches on Department of Natural Resources Land;

The aroma of bleach and pit toilets that sticks in the nostrils after a week of State Park Campground duty;

And the sentimental-tinged realities swirling in my adolescent head as each day wore on: missing my best friend back home, and yet dreading the ever-approaching end of summer when I must leave this brief, but thoroughly established and adapted-to camp/work existence, never to return to it again.

But when I play To the Morning now, after these many years, this time, of course, on Spotify (which certainly can never quite measure up to a rusty loud speaker as conduit for a tune spinning on a record player in a northern conservation camp office), it all comes back and I remember--that when I meet the day in this way, and watch the eggy orb show it’s cherub face, be it above a stark frozen landscape in January or one teeming with the early June croaks and bleeps of frogs and trillings of Red Wing Blackbirds in the marsh outside my door, that morning is when we establish how it will gothis day. 

And so I toast the morning in determined commitment, in a non-negotiable and oddly confident way, that, in the words of the song, “Yes! it is going to be a day where there really is nothing left to say but ‘come on morning.’”

Copyright Barb Harwood


To the Morning by Dan Fogelberg

Watching the sun
Watching it come
Watching it come up over the rooftops

Cloudy and warm
Maybe a storm
You can never quite tell 
From the morning

And it’s going to be a day
There is really no way to say no 
To the morning

Yes it’s going to be a day
There is really nothing left to
Say but
Come on morning

Waiting for mail
Maybe a tail
From an old friend
Or even a lover

Sometimes there’s none
But we have fun
Thinking of all who might
Have written.

And maybe there are seasons
And maybe they change
And maybe to love is not so strange

The sounds of the day
They hurry away
Now they are gone until tomorrow

When day will break
And you will wake
And you will rake your hands
Across your eyes
And realize

That it’s going to be a day
There is really no way to say no
To the morning

Yes it’s going to be a day
There is really nothing left to say but
Come on morning


Written and sung by Dan Fogelberg



Sunday, June 14, 2020

Another Thought on Re-Thinking the Status Quo Corporate Church of Today


"But do not be called Rabbi; for One is your Teacher, and you are all brothers. Do not call anyone on earth your father; for One is your Father, He who is in heaven. Do not be called leaders; for One is your Leader, that is, Christ." Matthew 23:8-10

R. T. France, in the Tyndale New Testament Commentary on the Book of Matthew, writes, regarding the above passage:

"...to recognize that Matthew records Jesus' creation of a new community does not entail reading into his Gospel all the institutional paraphernalia which the word 'church' tends to suggest to us. Indeed, when this Gospel is compared with the letters of Paul, mostly written before even the earliest date suggested for Matthew, it is remarkable how lacking it is in 'church' terminology. No church officers are mentioned..."





Tuesday, June 9, 2020

For This Day


from The Briar and the Rose by Tom Waits

“I picked the rose one early morn
I pricked my finger on a thorn
They’d grown so high
Its winding wove the briar around the rose

I tried to tear them both apart
I felt a bullet in my heart
And all dressed up in springs new clothes
The briar and the rose

And when I’m buried and in my grave

Tell me so I will know
Your tears will fall
To make love grow
The briar and the rose




Saturday, June 6, 2020

Aftermath




Aftermath
A poem by Barb Harwood


Thunder—anger voiced.

Lightning—shards of overwhelming life, unleashed.

Wind—the patterned and impulsive on their course.

Pent up maelstrom all;
perfect storm.

Snapped twigs,
sodden boughs asunder,
triad leaves, downed and trampled; 
Brokenness across the lawn—
in the street
upon the rooftops.

Will depleted, trails off as
slight breath of breeze meets steam upon the pavement.
Fireflies marshal quiet.
Nervous, 
stars emerge.


A tired sun awakes
and with her God to man bespeaks 
not of the whirlwind or the squall;
the frenzied pitch and pellets of the rain—

But of the pleading
ardent
and expectant aftermath--
beyond the raking of the scene
that puts to superficial rights all which had lain askew-

to ask and put to answer what will be gained
what will be gained
be gained 
be gained...

in the aftermath. 



Copyright Barb Harwood