Monday, April 27, 2020

Our Father



It is not that we never experience negative emotions; it is that those emotions come first:

“I was overcome by trouble and sorrow” (Psalm 116:3b).

But then:

“Then I called on the name of the LORD:
‘O LORD, save me!’” (Psalm 116:4).

Our full adoption by the Spirit of God into His household removes us now from the household of biology or man. In God’s household is where we have full access to and reception of everything our earthly households cannot or do not supply because they live in too much dysfunction to freely and adequately give it.

Therefore, in sheer incredulity but yet unequivocal surety, in joy, we ponder and manifest that:

“The LORD is gracious and righteous;
Our God is full of compassion. 
The LORD protects the simplehearted;
When I was in great need, he saved me” (Psalm 116:5-6)

That need—private and unspoken—can ever be only rightly understood and addressed by our original and true Mother and Father, our Parent in every aspect, God.

“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!  And that is what we are!” (1 John 3:1a).

So then, 

“Be at rest once more, O my soul, 
for the LORD has been good to you.
For you, O LORD, have delivered my soul from death, 
my eyes from tears, 
my feet from stumbling, 
that I may walk before the LORD 
in the land of the living.” Psalm 116:7-9


Copyright Barb Harwood


“All your children will be taught by the LORD, 
and great will be their peace.” Isaiah 54:13




Saturday, April 18, 2020

Unless You Become Like Children


At fifty-seven, and into the nineteenth year of walking with Jesus, I have progressed—persevered through and survived—about as many phases of theology, ideology and self that one can. 

Although there will be knowledge yet to come, I believe I’ve taken big bites out of the aforementioned predominant states of being, chewed them up and digested or spit them out, to confidently emerge on the other side, to the place Scripture describes as this:

“And he said: ‘Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven” (Matthew 18:2-3). 

And:

“Who are you to judge someone else’s servant? To their own master, servants stand or fall. And they will stand, for the Lord is able to make them stand. 
One person considers one day more sacred than another; another considers every day alike. Each of them should be fully convinced in their own mind. Whoever regards one day as special does so to the Lord. Whoever eats meat does so to the Lord, for they give thanks to God; and whoever abstains does so to the Lord and gives thanks to God. For none of us lives for ourselves alone, and none of us dies for ourselves alone. If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living.
You then, why do you judge your brother or sister? Or why do you treat them with contempt? For we will all stand before God’s judgment seat” (Romans 14:4)

In other words, I’ve arrived on the other side of social, congregational, denominational, political, familial and cultural labels, constructs, talking points and tribalisms, to the very place of a child.

When Jesus says one must hate one’s family—along with one’s own life (Luke 14:26)—I get it now: one must hate the pull, the dysfunction, the competition amongst family and church members to be the greatest; to be one's own savior, so to speak, or the savior of others. 

One must additionally hate polarizations, partisanships, cliques, un-thought-through allegiances and what I call “the labelization” of people—the act of being for this group and against that group; for this individual and against that individual.

That is what we are to hate, in ourselves and in others.

And while all of the above yet exists, the difference is that I no longer desire to exist within it because I have chosen to no longer desire to exist within it.

“Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you” 
(Luke 6:37-38).

For my entire life, I’ve been pressed down and shaken for one outcome—the “running over” of Christ into my lap—no longer obligated to live in the hateful and hated prison of my own promotion, or that of the “group,” whatever and whomever constitutes the group at any given time. 

In my sojourn, He “drew me out of many waters…” (Psalm 18:16b)

releasing me from having to be part of any of them

freeing me from pressure in any form to subscribe to anyone or anything. 

“Now about your love for one another we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. And in fact, you do love all of God’s family throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers and sisters, to do so more and more, and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands, just as we told you,” (1 Thessalonians 4:9-11).

Today I stand at the crossroads, the crossroads of all that has been; all that can yet be.

I reach out, and with one hand, take the hand of the child I once was.

With my other hand, I take hold of the hand of Christ. 

Together, the three of us walk, out onto the path of life, of all that can yet be.


“You will make known to me the path of life;
In your presence is fullness of joy;
In your right hand there are pleasures forever.” 
Psalm 16:11



Copyright Barb Harwood






Friday, April 10, 2020

He Deemed it Finished so that We May Continue in His Beginning


“Then King David went in and sat before the LORD, and he said:
‘Who am I, LORD God, and what is my family, that you have brought me this far? (1 Chronicles 17:16; also in 2 Samuel 7:18) 

The singular reason I can and do claim this benediction—in truthful, overwhelming thankfulness—is because of Jesus’ atoning sacrifice, His ascension to the right hand of God where He continually intercedes, His Word and His Holy Spirit. 
In tender, pondering awe I quietly cherish and "see what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!" (1 John 3:a). 




“…Jesus said, ‘It is finished.’” John 19:30 (in part)


“If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him?” Luke 11:13



"His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins.
Therefore, my brothers and sisters, make every effort to confirm your calling and election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble, and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ." 

2 Peter 1:3-11










Wednesday, April 8, 2020

A Present Faith



When every-day common normalcy and routine is disrupted—during a stay-at-home order or otherwise—the thing having great potential to germinate, or to become even more realized, is faith.

Singular faith: what we believe to be the kernel underlying everything, and which presents a semblance of life having a point.

Martha and Mary were two sisters. One day, Martha invited Jesus to her house:

"As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her”
(Luke 10:38-41).


Worried and upset about many things…” 

That is the distance Martha put between herself and the one thing: singular faith that takes foundational precedence over all other faiths, making the point of it all.

Mary cast consideration upon Jesus, sensing that insight—and perhaps even faith—could be located there. 

Martha was held back, stuck in a transactional “keeping score” state of herself and her doing. Her faith was in herself and Mary and their abilities and obligations. As a result, Martha’s foundation was unsettled and resentful.

Mary’s openness, on the other hand, emanated, not from herself or from Martha or from serving—even serving such a great teacher as Jesus—but from God Himself as she studied the possibility of Him being exactly the point; the point of everything.  


Copyright Barb Harwood





Monday, April 6, 2020

This New Spring Day



Laced with frost, the morning welcomes the sun in bejeweled gladness.

Barb Harwood

Sunday, April 5, 2020

Forgiveness: Having It!


In Luke chapter seven, Jesus explains to the Pharisees that “he who has been forgiven little loves little.”

He said this in the context of the Pharisees’ negative judgement of Jesus for letting a woman of questionable morals weep upon, kiss and pour perfume on His feet, and wipe those tears with her hair.

The Pharisees were aghast. 

But again, as we’ve seen elsewhere, Jesus knew their thoughts—specifically the thoughts of Simon, the Pharisee who had invited Jesus to have dinner in his house—and it is those unspoken thoughts to which Jesus responds:

“‘…Simon, I have something to tell you.’”

Tell me, teacher,’ he said.

‘Two men owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he canceled the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?’

Simon replied, ‘I suppose the one who who had the bigger debt canceled.’

‘You have judged correctly,’ Jesus said” (Luke 7:40-43).

The woman, who had been forgiven so very much, lovingly responds much to her Savior. 

I believe her tears were the tears of a repentant woman, along with the tears of a woman joyful in Christ’s purification of her. Her adoration was gratefulness in action.

Here is a woman who is forgiven not because she is any worse than the rest of us, or because she needs forgiveness more, but because, perhaps for the very first time, she becomes aware that she needs forgiveness. Once aware, she accepts forgiveness. 

No stiff upper lip. 

No haughty mocking of Christ. 

No self-protective playing of the self-esteem card or intellectual credence to “at heart being a good person.” 

No running in fear from the never-before experience of utter inner conviction that confirmed this man to be Lord of Lords and King of Kings. 

No.

The seed Christ planted in the woman takes, watered into life by His Spirit.

Have we ever tried to reconcile with someone via mutual apology who simply isn’t having it?
Their reaction is often one of stoic stubbornness: nothing we say or do will ever permeate their thick fibrous core. For whatever reason, they want to hold onto their grudge, their victimhood, and their ‘being in the right.” 

Forgiveness, for them, gets in the way of all that. 

When someone comes to them showing a willingness to reconcile and move on, that doesn’t sit well with them because in their minds, the wrong was too egregious, or their point of view and “having been one hundred percent in the right” has not yet been conceded. They are not going to budge an ounce of ground towards forgiveness because it makes them feel uncomfortably vulnerable to be transparent or to accept someone else’s transparency. They squirm at the very idea of acknowledging that they have been mistaken, not just in this particular instance, but in many others as well. 

They refuse to admit what the woman in the Luke passage contritely admitted: they don’t believe they have anything to be forgiven for. 

I’m talking about forgiveness in the context of daily interactions, not acts of abuse and crime inflicted on innocents. That requires a much different process of forgiveness.

For the woman at Jesus’ feet, it is her honest acknowledgement before Him of her unfiltered past that leads to her unspeakable joy that she is now finally and absolutely free from it. She suddenly owns a fresh vista in which to go forward, made possible by the confession of her brokenness to Christ and His redeeming full acceptance, enabling her to become new.

In other words, when it came to forgiveness, the forgiveness Christ offered, she was, indeed, having it!

“Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little” (Luke 7:47).

This isn’t because Jesus forgives little or not at all. It’s because the person I described earlier, the one who cannot own up to their own inner lostness and error, cuts themselves off from forgiveness—either the receipt of it or the ability to give it. 

“Then Jesus said to her, ‘Your sins are forgiven.’
The other guests began to say among themselves, ‘Who is this who even forgives sins?’
Jesus said to the woman, ‘Your faith has saved you; go in peace’” (Luke 7:48-50).


Copyright Barb Harwood



Thursday, April 2, 2020

Prayer for the Day


Lord, let me seize the insights this time provides:
what to change about myself and life,
what to prioritize,
what to ease up on or forgo altogether—
how to be, really, in such a way as not to regret—
and what to appreciate that I did not before.
Let the cream of this crisis rise to the top for me to skim and absorb, 
never to forget or return to a previous normal.  


copyright Barb Harwood