We crave the emotionalism of Christmas like a drug. And when
it doesn’t come, we buy more, drink more, bake more and eat more, in hopes that
sooner or later, if we do all the traditional things, the emotions will
genuinely come. But often, the older we get, they never do.
This is my first Christmas where there was altogether no
snow, no home-baked goods except for the cupcakes brought over by my neighbor,
no focus on presents, and no children (both our kids are far away in two
different states). And God in His mercy made it an exceedingly contented
Christmas.
I love my kids and being with them at Christmas. I delight
in traditional Christmas cookies. And I adore a white Christmas. But this year,
knowing I would have none of that, I prayed a simple prayer to God to keep me
strong. He not only kept me strong, he cleansed me of the need to have the
usual accouterments of Christmas, and gave me His peace (which indeed does
truly go beyond comprehending).
The only thing I can compare it to is the
residents of Whoville as they gathered together that Grinch-ransacked Christmas
morning: For them, Christmas “came without ribbons. It came without tags. It
came without packages, boxes or bags.” My Christmas even came without “rare
Who-roast beast” (my husband and I grabbed a late dinner of Chow Mein at a
small Chinese take out place after driving back from an impromptu snack
gathering with extended family on Christmas day).
What freedom to finally be able to sit with God each day of
December and just be still in Him! I thank God that no depression or funk
befell. I thank God especially for the young couple, friends of ours that we
met in seminary, who visited us in our home the weekend before Christmas. I thank
God that my husband and I had a quiet, lovely time on Christmas Eve that
harkened back to when it was just the two of us. I thank the Lord for His
coming into the world and into my husband and mine’s marriage. I thank God for
the life that each of my children is living that, although it keeps them away,
fulfills them.
Yes, Christmas came without the usual brouhaha, but also without the
usual dependence on it. Perhaps that is why it also came without the attendant post-Christmas let down. That is something I didn’t think I would ever experience. Christmas came pretty much as it did in that manger long ago: simply, lowly and
quietly joyful. It came, fully embracing the gift and tender blessings of God.
I pray that the peace and contentment God turned Christmas
into this year will be the case every year: whether it arrives with all the
trimmings or not; whether surrounded by loved ones or not.
I perceive this is what wise, aged believers experience, and
not just at Christmas. It is what they have come to know of God and the birth
of His Son into their lives.
copyright Barb Harwood
copyright Barb Harwood
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have
peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the
world.” John 16:33
“Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!” 2 Corinthians
9:15
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